i am feeling uninspired. =( i have this amazing assignment for my sociology class: write a paper on what my life would be like if i were a boy. how it would be different/better/worse, etc. it's a great paper, lots of fun. but i am feeling uninspired. every time i go to write it, i just can't seem to think. i sit here at the computer, utterly stumped. i dont' know hwo to start it, i dont know hwo to finish it, i dont know what to say...
i guess maybe i'm happy with being a girl. although i know i am disadvantaged in many ways, i still don't see it. i feel wonderful.
there would be certain perks of course: people wouldn't look at me funny (with my buzzed head) if i were a boy. which is pretty crummy! but i deal. i guess there is some sort of shock value to all that, but it is definitely not the reaction i want to see. ah well, i live.
today my roommate is having a ''guest'' and so i am ''banished'' to the library. my class are going alright. psych is as usual, fine. i'm doing much better in british lit. i think that class has helped me with my writing. my gender class is still pretty boring. i really hate it.
guys, the bad thing about college is sometimes you have to write papers. and in these papers you have to write about what you think and your opinion on this or that. and sometimes, the teacher disagrees and gives you a B when you deserve an A. that sucks. =(
anyway. sociology is def. my favourite class this semester. =) so that's good. it is the happy in my week.
having shaved my head on monday i realize how comfortable the environment we had in TRCS was. the fact is, although this is college, people still make value judgments and they're all still pretty fucking close minded. which is why i feel TRCS is so amazing. although i felt pretty unconfident the first time i shaved my head, there was so much support coming from everybody that all that dissipated soon enough. here, it's another story. =/ it makes me feel a little uncomfortable. although i don't regret shaving my hair i still feel really unable to be myself in the face of all this scrutiny. but i'll learn. it'll work. =)
my lips are really chapped, and they really hurt. =/ sucky. randomly: i redid my room. yesterday my room mate and i got bored and took a study break in order to bunk our beds and drawers. of course, i decided to take the top bunk. heh. it's ... different. i woke up this morning and kinda darted up and knocked my head on the ceiling! ouch! and i woke up to find myself almost falling off. but i will soon enough get used to it. having my bed up high really gives me incentive to get the hell out of bed in the morning. my movement is sorta restrained. where normally i would roll around and stretch and sit up, i can't. so i need to get up to do it. this is good. this is amazing. and i find i don't take naps anymore. the bed is too high and the will to little to climb up and get to sleep. so i've been a bit more active than normal. but then, it's only been one day. hopefully this continues.
i am also going to the gym more. i need to get rid of that freshman 15 (haha, it's actually the freshman 25 right now!) eek! ah well. now that i have gotten fired up with typing maybe this paper will come easier. i hope i hope i hope. =) | 
